Every time some one tells me that "We'd stay in touch", I want to snap back and say, "No, I don't want to stay in touch, because I don't want you to go." It's just a phrase that I've grown to despise, because it's so fake and so "managerial." It's something we all say to hide our true, pure feelings, for we are too scared to speak our hearts out. Strange. Strange...because we're too scared to be honest to people we are close to... to family, to friends, and worse still, to ourselves....strange, because we are too scared to acknowledge our own feelings.
Don't get back to me and tell me that this is "life", and that people would walk in and walk out. Like flowers that blossomed one spring; and flowers that would stay on as wilted, dried petals in the diary of my heart. I know all of that, you know, I know it's all a part of growing up.
Howmuchsoever I want to grow up and behave like an adult, I can't. I'm still the kid who'd cry the moment Dad would go to office, the kid who'd never like to say goodbye, the kid who'd want people to stay forever. Sorry, that's just the way I am. Deep down.
And I guess thats just the way we all are. Deep down. It's just that some of us are better actors than others. Guess growing up is all about being able to act well and pretend that we can "accept" things the way they are.
I hope I get there some day.
I hope I get there some day.
15 comments:
you echo my feelings/thoughts completely...
Me too:(
It's hard when parts of lives just disappear.
But there will always be those who will stay also.
@Divs: ...
@Adi: True.. but even with them, you'd have to fact "good-byes"
*face
well, an end signifies a beginning.
@Just So: Don't know if that's as positive as it sounds. Sometimes you don't want new beginnings, you just want perpetuity.
Why do you say that? I don't think so. Not always. Of course destiny has a role in life itself so that's a different thing.
@Adi: I say that because sometimes we need people who last us almost a "lifetime." Every end may signify a new beginning, but that beginning might not exactly be a positive change....
I know what you're talking about...but somehow the grown up world has a way of putting down the perpetuity or the "everafters", so to say..maybe the accrued cynicism increases exponentially with age! and for those of us unwilling to "grow up", life has its own ways I guess..
On another note, I loved your comment on my blog, that I included it on the main post. Thanks!
-WG
What you said reminds me of a poem I read long time ago--
"They say memories are golden,
Well, maybe that is true;
But I never wanted memories,
I only wanted you."
And thanks for including the comment in the main post! :)
thats so true...deep down we are all kids pretending to be adults....
@Pushkar: Agree. I wonder why adulthood is all about pretense.
And there are people who DO last that long.
The problem is, not everyone I would like to last that long does....
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